More Will-Power
Last term had as a guest lecturer an eminent retired professor from IIMC . He educated us on Indian values and ethos, how we can achieve our higher self, which is free from all the trappings of the materialistic world, plus how we can combat stress,lead a happy life and harness the enrgy within us. He gave us lot of Vedic gyaan, also distributed some profound articles by Sri Aurobindo and Swami Vivekananda. I was very impressed and thought of inculcating some of those practices in my daily life, but now when I look back there hasnt been an iota of change in me. I dont want to lament on my weak will or inertia, because it has a detrimental effect on the psyche, but still can't help wondering why I get swayed so easy and decide on stuff to do and later am unable to accomplish it. This has been occuring quite regulary now for me to ignore it. I should by now know my limitations and strenghts, and have a realistic viewpoint on things. Though focussing on limitations can result in me under-performing and not reaching my potential, but then having idealistic expectations leads to a self-recriminating feeling. Have to tread a middle path, but am yet to find that balance. I dont expect to be perfect in all my resolutions and decisions, but still there shouldn't be a feeling that I didnt do them justice. Hope that I strike the right mix soon.